but you can change the direction of your sails.
(Source: inkah)
you cant change the wind;
I have taken a vow to myself that this is my final tumblr post dedicated to you. My heart has plundered deep enough for me to feel desperate. So i made the choice to see if handing it back to you without any caution procedures would answer some of my deeply empty questions. Where are you would be my first. As in; why did you dump me on my own ship and push me out to sea without any map of where i am heading. Why would be my second, why am I the only one that feels like the swim back is worth it. I mean, damn; the ship has already wrecked, should i just sink now? It seems kind of a waste of potential doesnt it? To let such a complex mixture of words, feelings, and love sink into nothing. And third and most important; how. How, is the one that I can’t wrap my mind around. It’s like I dont have the capability of un-knotting my brainwaves to stretch that far around this question. How did our boat that we built together form a hole big enough to let that much damage take over? It had a direction, and a strong sail. It was a beautiful creation that only we can take credit for. Our very own place in the very big ocean. Wave after wave we floated on…until one day; we sank. I suppose we went of the map a bit, we watched sadly as many boats sank inevitably around us, hoping one day that we would reach our island safely. I took a chance on you, blind and confident, and together we dove into the ocean. So how; how do I keep my head above water when my life jacket has already floated away.
Life has only promised that we will eventually float to our rightful destination where we shall feel nothing but calm sea and warm content. I’ve been swimming for a while now, letting the waves do the sailing; taking a chance. That warm island I was always promised seems opposite then where i am heading, but you and I both know I was never the better swimmer.
I was though, the better believer. I believe that this ship was meant to be broken so that each of us can build a new one. This new one shall be built on confidence, strong will, passion, love, and most importantly; courage. For now that we don’t have each other, we must know how to swim alone. I’m still working on it…I’m making my own progress.
But I want you to know, I saved a piece of our boat…and no matter how many ships I sail; You will always sail on with me.
(Source: iheart-photos)
Be thankful for every heartbreak, for they were planned. They come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. Their purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life. And you do.
every person deserves a last wish. it freezes a little but continues. please watch for liz.
http://www.facebook.com/pages/RIP-Elisabeth-Campanelli/104940392926900
I miss you liz, you’ll always be my best friend
Some sink and some lay; at least i don’t see you float away.
For I am nothing special when you’re not around. I am nor strong or content with the pressure of falling without knowing when I’ll hit the bottom. Fear isn’t an excuse to push past obstacles anymore, I will not allow it to steer me away from you.
For you are special all by yourself. I knew from the moment I met you that you were not an anyone; you are my one. I dove straight into you, fearless and beautifully not knowing when i would hit the bottom. I’ve fallen deeper and deeper; but have yet to crash.
Resist me for as long as you can, but ill push back.. you are entirely too important.
So jump in this boat and we’ll float away; together, the way it should always be.
